Hi Subcomandante - welcome
I'm sorry that things aren't great for you - I doubt they'd be much better if you returned to drinking tho?
I know for a while, I just lived my life as I always had - and I wondered why I was miserable.
It took me a while to realise I was still living a drinkers life - I stayed home, watched tv and did very little else.
Fine for a drinker but not tolerable when I was sober.
Have you made many changes outside of just not drinking?
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