Hey Joel,
Hi, how you doing? I just wanted to tell you that I was married for 26 years. All of a sudden it was like I felt like my ex husband hated me. I'm not saying there weren't flags before then, there were. I tried so hard to understand all of that. I read books, I talked to people, I tried to turn myself into something that I wasn't so that he would love me.
I have a scientific, mathematical mind. I needed to know why. I questioned everything till I was making myself nuts. I'm pretty sure my ex has a Borderline Personality Disorder, but I really don't care anymore. I could not make sense out of non sense. I think sometimes, we need to focus more on ourselves then to try to figure out someone else. We need to think about what we want in life, instead of how you might be able to survive a life with someone else.
It's a hard thing to let go of trying to get an answer, or validation, but sometimes we just need to do that, for our own sanity.
((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
amy