I use to. I called it the 'zombie me' because even though I did not want to drink I was "taken over" by my AV and turned into a zombie going to buy alcohol and drinking for the next couple of days. Now I just play the tape forward and remember how sick I get when I drink and that I cannot drink or I will die. I want to live and I am stronger than my addiction.
Someone posted that "No one wakes up in the morning thinking 'I wish I would of drank last night'!"