Angel, I am glad you are alive. Life is a gift. The good news is we get to open it again every new day. It is a gift but it is our responsibility to cherish, enjoy and take care of it. It can be so hard sometimes. Life can feel like so much pain. I guess we just have learn to live with the pain without f##king it up to much. I am glad you made it back. Together we can get through this madness of addiction. I know you know the other side of using has so much of what life can be. stay well