Yes, I am here for you aswell. I had a similar effect during my last coke bindge too. It was scary and I kept asking God to keep me alive. I felt that if I closed my eyes, I would not live anymore. My heart was in so much pain. I know what you are going through and I never want to feel that way again. I know you don't either. Stay strong and fight for your life. You know what to do.
Love,
Rob