Thanks for this - it's good to read about your experience and receive that message exactly when I need it.
Although I've come to acknowledge the out of control aspect started much earlier than I did previously, it's only just now that I'm coming to a rudimentary understanding of the relationship between me and alcohol. This is the hard part - take alcohol out of me and what have you got? Same thing as before, only not drunk. Or something.
Anyhow, I just wanted to say thanks for posting because it's taken many many messages and forms of messages for me to "get" that this recovery thing is hard work. Simple, but hard.
Good on you for four months - that's awesome!
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