Oh Sim. My heart breaks for you. I, like everyone else am here for you. I cant imagine what you are going through right now, but can relate to alcohol numbing the pain. I am glad that you at least posted. It may help to find comfort in knowing that we are all here for you-- us Mayflies.... through thick and thin.
Take it easy and just know we love you and our thoughts and prayers are with you every step of the day.
All my love,
Camery