Hey Sim, I'm so glad you're posted again. There is so much going on in your life I'm not surprised you're finding it hard to stop the drink. Did you go see your counselor? Please go if you can... get it off your chest sweetheart.
Please keep posting, this is the best place to be when you're feeling low.
Such lovely comments from Jo, Ben, Arp and Dee... yes, we're all here for you and each other.
Don't give up girl, it will get better again, please call the counselor