Day 1. No more games.
So weaning doesn’t work. Not for me anyway. The next 3 days I work both jobs which will definitely help me not to drink. I have no vodka in the house. Unfortunately because I drank it all last night.
I’ve come to realize my friend isn’t really my friend. He’s a good person and hasn’t done anything to me, but he was really dragging me down. Worse than I already am. He didn’t do it intentionally. We’re just 2 people with addictions who were feeding off of each other. So I’ve quit messaging him and if he messages me I’ll be nice, but won’t encourage contact. He still will be going to jail so there won’t be any contact when that occurs for sure.
This is not gonna be easy, but I have to do this to save my life. In a lot of ways.
Here’s to day 1. I’ll be reading as much as I can. I will be strong today!!!