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Old 10-03-2017, 05:04 AM
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Day 1. No more games.

So weaning doesnít work. Not for me anyway. The next 3 days I work both jobs which will definitely help me not to drink. I have no vodka in the house. Unfortunately because I drank it all last night.

Iíve come to realize my friend isnít really my friend. Heís a good person and hasnít done anything to me, but he was really dragging me down. Worse than I already am. He didnít do it intentionally. Weíre just 2 people with addictions who were feeding off of each other. So Iíve quit messaging him and if he messages me Iíll be nice, but wonít encourage contact. He still will be going to jail so there wonít be any contact when that occurs for sure.

This is not gonna be easy, but I have to do this to save my life. In a lot of ways.

Hereís to day 1. Iíll be reading as much as I can. I will be strong today!!!
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Old 10-03-2017, 05:22 AM
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Sind,

When that switch flips you will know it.

I did.

I keep reading and posting, go to an AA meeting once in a while, hit the gym, try to eat clean, and hydrate.

My crave time is around 12 to 6. That is when i get ansy.

Before and after that, it is ok...not perfect though for sure.

Thanks.
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Wishing you the best Sinderos - make a good plan and stick to it

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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My crave time is when I get off work. Thankfully I donít get off of my night job until between 8:30 and 9:00 pm. Iíll still be craving it at that time but Iím going to be strong. Iím going to log on to the meeting on here if I donít get off late.
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Hi Sinderos

Glad you're trying again. When I read the post about only having a couple of drinks being a victory I thought, ruh, roh....scoody doo voice.

I guess it still goes back to that thorough honesty with yourself. Everything in your post above was said to you by multiple people several posts back. I know that I hate (HATE) taking advice. Imagine that? I don't think that's an uncommon personality defect among addicts. Guess that's why sharing from personal experience seems to work better overall.

BUT, I try to imagine if I actually did listen to all the direction I have received over the years? Wow. I'd have 14 years sober. I'm trying now to listen to those around me, really listen. And also realize that is someone is 'worse off' than I am, that that is where I will end up if I continue to drink. It just hasn't happened YET. I'm a work in progress

Good luck. Don't drink no matter what.
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I'm glad to see you here, Sinderos. I hope you take some time today to come up with specific and detailed plan to help you get through this.
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Originally Posted by Frickaflip233 View Post
Hi Sinderos
And also realize that is someone is 'worse off' than I am, that that is where I will end up if I continue to drink. It just hasn't happened YET. I'm a work in progress

Good luck. Don't drink no matter what.
Iím way worse than I was just 2 months ago. Iím going to lose everything if I dont get my act together and quit drinking. I donít want to lose all that Iíve worked so hard for.
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I'm glad to see you here, Sinderos. I hope you take some time today to come up with specific and detailed plan to help you get through this.
Iím working literally all day. I do plan to read over the document Dee sent the link for at lunch. My plan for today is to work both jobs and when I get off tonight go straight home, walk my pups and then clean the kitchen before going to bed.

The next 3 days I work 7 to 4 then 5 to 9. It will help a lot not having much free time the first few days.

Friday night Iíll be off in the evening. Iím going to make a solid plan for that night.
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So weaning doesnít work. Not for me anyway. The next 3 days I work both jobs which will definitely help me not to drink. I have no vodka in the house. Unfortunately because I drank it all last night.

Iíve come to realize my friend isnít really my friend. Heís a good person and hasnít done anything to me, but he was really dragging me down. Worse than I already am. He didnít do it intentionally. Weíre just 2 people with addictions who were feeding off of each other. So Iíve quit messaging him and if he messages me Iíll be nice, but wonít encourage contact. He still will be going to jail so there wonít be any contact when that occurs for sure.

This is not gonna be easy, but I have to do this to save my life. In a lot of ways.

Hereís to day 1. Iíll be reading as much as I can. I will be strong today!!!
Welcome and congrats on day 1. Keep it going
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