I still feel lousy but better. Not sleeping well at all, but did get 4 hours last night. They did an Ativan taper which ended Saturday. My vision is very blurry and just feel very off. Still scared I really did some permanent damage to my brain, eyes and body this time. I had switched from 80 proof to 100 proof but drank at the same level as my last stupid relapse of a handle every 2 days. I hope my eyes come back. Reading close up is a struggle & distance is a challenge. I start outpatient group therapy Monday & I have 1 on 1 therapy tomorrow. Went back to my 7AM meeting this morning and am trying to set up more rides, no license on 2nd offense for 5 years! I feel like such a failure
