...the odds are all stacked against you?
That's exactly how I've felt for the last couple weeks. This has gotten me in a terrible rut. I started feeling worthless, like I couldn't do anything right. I mean, everything I touched was going wrong! I've been waking up late for work, I can barely pay my bills and feed my kids. I have a wedding I'm in coming up that I don't have the money for. I've pushed a very good friend of mine away. My boss sucks. My car sucks. My daughter has impetego so that was more money at the Dr. office. The list goes on and on.
Well, its time I get off my damn soap box. Things will not get better unless I get up and pull myself together. Next month I get the money I've been putting into my Christmas Club account. I decided today that since I pay half of ALL my bills every two weeks, that if I'm two weeks late on half my mortgage, it won't kill me. I will make a double payment when I get my Christmas club money. That way, I will have money for the dress and alterations for the wedding.
I got a call today because I forgot to pay one of my bills last month. Rather than get an attitude with them for calling me, I simply explained what my situation was. And guess what....they are working with me. But I told them that I absolutely cannot pay anymore than what I already pay them. They dropped the late charge and stretched out my due date.
I took my daughter to the doctor, he gave me samples of the antibiotic.
My job....I love my job. I just have to take a different approach when dealing with my boss. I realize that it's not me that has the problem, it's her. If it makes her feel better to belittle me, sobeit. But I am going to start pointing it out to her that I don't appreciate it...very gently of course.
My car....I called my uncle today to see if he'd help me get it fixed. Of course, that'll be on his spare time. But at least the help will be there.
And I'm going to get my rear up earlier so I'm not flying into work and risking being late (I been struggling the last week or so getting out of bed...depression - I've been late once. Not a good thing).
I am doing myself or my kids NO good staying in the state I'm in. Time to pull myself out.
sorry if I bored you will so much of my personnal stuff, but I had to get this out.