Stronger2017! The drinking dreams! I've never felt panic like I do when I wake up from one of those. Man, how horrible they are but such a good reminder.
My AV tried to pull one over on me today. Not that I wanted to drink right then, but I can hear it planning for the future. The last night I drank was an absolute mess, and I can already feel it in there going 'You can let the last time you ever drink be a bad night! Have one more night where you just have a drink or two and have some fun. Better to end on a good note!"
Which is how it got me last time. And the time before that. Because I do it, and then I think I can successfully moderate and then I can't. The good news is this is the LAST time I had to prove that to myself. There is no reason for me to ever drink again. Like RAL said, I would not regret NOT drinking but I would regret drinking.