Good advice. I need to worry about what I am doing, not what others are doing. I can always go back to my hotel room, re group, go into the lobby, log into SR and ask for help, and I really like the advice that even I can dip out of my own ceremony early if everyone is there to get bombed. My recovery is way more important. I talked to fiancé and he said he has no problem not drinking at either vacation and he is going to plan tons of stuff for us to do instead of sitting around.. going fishing, exploring the ruins etc., so that makes me feel a lot better about it.
After I get through these two vacations I wont be putting myself in these situations again unless I feel more stable.
Thank you!