I had the awareness you have. I did nothing. I burnt to death..clinically dead 3 times. My family abandoned me then. No next of kin, no visits- I lost everything. Alcohol was my ball and change. You need to live has to be stronger than your want to drink. A hard choice......you do not want my experiences. GET HELP.
See a doc, go to a meeting, see a counselor- post here.
Consider- all the excuses in the world not to get help...I would have crawled over broken glass for another drink.