Hi beeronlysure
I already had a ball and chain - in my alcoholism.
I didn't need another ball and chain - I just needed to accept that I was an alcoholic.
After I accepted I was an alcoholic and I'd accepted my drinking would kill me, there weren't many options left to me, but to quit and see where that took me.
It not only saved my life but I got my life back.
I hope you'll decide to quit and see where that takes you too
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