Originally Posted by
brianmsj 
Hello,
I recently celebrated 11 months clean and sober. In this past year, I went back to school, got a new career, got my family back and some trust and dignity within myself back.
First, congratulations on making all those amazing life changes!!!
I attend AA but still feel like I'm hanging on for dear life in sobriety even though all these positive things are the result of my sobriety. I still feel depressed and struggle with a lot of anxiety. I am wondering if I am white knuckling it and if I am, how do I stop? I don't really know what to do. Any help is appreciated.
It's been my experience that just changing external circumstances wouldn't keep me sober, even though they added to my recovery. It was also my experience that just attending AA wasn't enough to recover. I had to get a sponsor to take me through the 12 steps for the internal stuff to be resolved.
Once out on the other side of the step work, "the problem has been removed" as it says in the big book. I can't remember the last time I white knuckled not drinking and I am so grateful for that.