I'm so proud of you for not giving in to the misrepresentation that your AV put on.
The reality is that we often DO miss the feeling of inclusion that we associate with "drinking with friends". I sometimes feel this way still when in a group that are drinking, but now I try to challenge myself to have EVEN MORE FUN than they're having.
How?
Engage in super fun conversations
Smile tons
Appreciate that every atom and cell in your body is pure and not under the effect of poison
Key into the fact that you will go home and sleep well and wake up hangover-free
You've made it 138 days! That is phenomenal.
And as SereneEdition pointed out, you definitely know deep down that drinking will not bring any positives into your life, an this is ultimately what keeps you sober!
I often play a game on my blog where I write out all the bad things that happened when I drank, and then I try to write a column of good things that happened when I drank.
As you can imagine, there aren't any entries in the "good" column.
What's that expression, "no one ever woke up the night after going out and though- geez, I wish I would've had just one more tequila"
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