The fact that you didn't drink leads me to believe that in your core, you don't truly believe that thought. It is just a trigger thought, albeit one with a good left hook in it!
See if the AV thought about "drinking fun" still feels so true when you wake up in the morning: happy to wake up without a hangover, or hating yourself for picking up.
FWIW, most of my recovery was about me learning how to meet my needs other than picking up. Sounds like this trigger is a clue that you may want to focus on discovering what you really, truly find "fun" in life. I guarantee it's there. If you don't know know where to start, revisit childhood sports/hobbies and go from there.
I'm excited for you for this next phase of recovery: when I started seeking my fun and joy in life, I started living life for the first time in 20 years.
& Congrats on 138 days. That is something to celebrate!