I'm really glad you made it back AK.
I believe addiction is a condition we underestimate at our peril.
I think the general advie here, to find more support and make more changes is good advice.
A recovery plan can help you stay sober - for good.
There's some great ideas on recovery plans here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
it takes commitment and effort - but you can do this
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