Hi waterox - welcome back
Many many of us have fallen a time or two - whatever people might say here you're part of the SR family and we have your best interests at heart
do whatever you need to to find the support and good ideas and make a day one again.
You may have to work a little harder this time, but thats the progressive nature of alcoholism.
It's still very possible to be sober and to stay that way
It all starts from this point.
Make a decision for change
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