D122, I also wanted to say that I have found your posts incredibly helpful and supportive to others. I hope you won't feel too raw after the whole experience.
If it had been me (clearly still struggling with recovery), I would have been furious at being pressured to drink and blamed everyone but myself! So thank you....your willingness to take responsibility is demonstrating the path I need to take.
It takes real courage and strength to come back here and reach out to others...knowing there will be some hard to hear opinions and thoughts.
I echo what Simply Free said in his posts- they express my thoughts better than I can manage!
Take care.