I agree with Snazzy, D.
What's done is done.
We have a weird relationship with alcohol.
Go back to step one and work your way down.
That's what I do, when I have the presence of mind to think about it.
I was told to read page 61-63 out of the BB in first person, every day for one week. Say the 3rd step prayer. (especially if I am struggling)
Stop beating up yourself, humble yourself and carry on taking care of you.
We don't stay healthy, happy or sane by telling ourselves we're poisoned or sick.
That's yesterday. What you do with today is up to you. Reframe. Be kind to yourself. All is not lost.