New To Forums: My Story
Hi Everyone!
I'm really excited that I found this forum/website. I have had problems with binge drinking since I had my first sip of alcohol at age 14. Over the last 2 decades, binge drinking was a very regular occurrence....getting more and more frequent as the years passed, and ultimately led to a bad habit of drinking alone.
When I finally had enough last summer, I asked the Universe for a sign that I could give up the drinking...it just felt way bigger than me, and I wasn't sure I could combat the addiction alone.
Days later, I found out I was pregnant with my son.
I took that as a wonderful sign that I WAS worthy, I was capable and I was being sent a little boy to help me through.
Stayed sober throughout pregnancy and one month after his birth.
Then, three months ago, I had a glass of wine with dinner.
Well, that turned into an almost 60 day straight drinking session. It seemed like I was "making up for lost time".
Quickly depleted our entire-very large- wine collection.
The guilt and shame started to creep in.
I didn't want to go back to this, after having felt AMAZING, strong, fulfilled and powerful for 10 months.
And now, with this beautiful little boy in my life, what was I drinking for?!
Today I am celebrating 15 days sober.
It's a starting place that I'm proud to celebrate.
My ability to finally call a duck a duck is helping me tremendously.
We shouldn't be ashamed of our journeys, and sharing our stories
with others can only help us get stronger.
Happy weekend to all!