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Old 08-26-2017, 03:55 AM
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Hi Everyone!

I'm really excited that I found this forum/website. I have had problems with binge drinking since I had my first sip of alcohol at age 14. Over the last 2 decades, binge drinking was a very regular occurrence....getting more and more frequent as the years passed, and ultimately led to a bad habit of drinking alone.
When I finally had enough last summer, I asked the Universe for a sign that I could give up the drinking...it just felt way bigger than me, and I wasn't sure I could combat the addiction alone.
Days later, I found out I was pregnant with my son.

I took that as a wonderful sign that I WAS worthy, I was capable and I was being sent a little boy to help me through.
Stayed sober throughout pregnancy and one month after his birth.
Then, three months ago, I had a glass of wine with dinner.
Well, that turned into an almost 60 day straight drinking session. It seemed like I was "making up for lost time".
Quickly depleted our entire-very large- wine collection.
The guilt and shame started to creep in.
I didn't want to go back to this, after having felt AMAZING, strong, fulfilled and powerful for 10 months.
And now, with this beautiful little boy in my life, what was I drinking for?!

Today I am celebrating 15 days sober.
It's a starting place that I'm proud to celebrate.
My ability to finally call a duck a duck is helping me tremendously.
We shouldn't be ashamed of our journeys, and sharing our stories
with others can only help us get stronger.
Happy weekend to all!
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Old 08-26-2017, 04:01 AM
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wow congrats on 15 yrs
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Old 08-26-2017, 04:05 AM
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Hi and welcome SoberBlondie

Congrats on your 15 days - I think it's a great thing to do for yourself and your son

you'll find a lot of support here

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Old 08-26-2017, 04:08 AM
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15 Days but hopefully I WILL one day have 15 Years!!!!
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Well done Soberblondie. I hope I can follow your example.
Keep it up
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Welcome and well done hun.
So glad you found this forum.you will find tons of support here x
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Thank you Cuckoo!
I appreciate the support and am sending you some right back!
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15 days is awesome I was half asleep when I posted.
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Hi SoberBlondie, good job on your 15 days.
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Old 08-26-2017, 07:17 AM
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Great work. 15 days is awesome. Keep moving forward
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Old 08-26-2017, 07:22 AM
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Originally Posted by SoberBlondie View Post
Hi Everyone!

I'm really excited that I found this forum/website. I have had problems with binge drinking since I had my first sip of alcohol at age 14. Over the last 2 decades, binge drinking was a very regular occurrence....getting more and more frequent as the years passed, and ultimately led to a bad habit of drinking alone.
When I finally had enough last summer, I asked the Universe for a sign that I could give up the drinking...it just felt way bigger than me, and I wasn't sure I could combat the addiction alone.
Days later, I found out I was pregnant with my son.

I took that as a wonderful sign that I WAS worthy, I was capable and I was being sent a little boy to help me through.
Stayed sober throughout pregnancy and one month after his birth.
Then, three months ago, I had a glass of wine with dinner.
Well, that turned into an almost 60 day straight drinking session. It seemed like I was "making up for lost time".
Quickly depleted our entire-very large- wine collection.
The guilt and shame started to creep in.
I didn't want to go back to this, after having felt AMAZING, strong, fulfilled and powerful for 10 months.
And now, with this beautiful little boy in my life, what was I drinking for?!

Today I am celebrating 15 days sober.
It's a starting place that I'm proud to celebrate.
My ability to finally call a duck a duck is helping me tremendously.
We shouldn't be ashamed of our journeys, and sharing our stories
with others can only help us get stronger.
Happy weekend to all!
Welcome and you can do this!
30+ years of drinking socially in my younger years, then becoming a recluse drinker as I got older. Wine was my poison during the last few years.
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Old 08-26-2017, 09:49 AM
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Hi Blondie! Congratulations on 15 days! I have 3 kids, I too maintained sobriety through all 3 pregnancies but after every one picked the bottle back up at one point or another. (Would you believe I didn't think I had a problem at those times)

So, don't beat yourself up. The important thing is that you've seen the cycle begin to repeat but are stopping it in its tracks. Great going on 15 days!
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Awesome! Binging was my problem too. I still cant enjoy a few. Great job on 15 days!
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Old 08-26-2017, 06:14 PM
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15 days - something to be so proud of! Those first few days are rough, but gradually we grow stronger & more hopeful. It's great to have you join us, SoberBlondie. I'm not sure where I'd be without the wonderful friends I've made here.
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Old 08-27-2017, 01:50 AM
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Thank you for all the wonderful messages of support!

I really feel like I've found my "tribe" here. The reality is that it's not always easy to discuss these topics with friends/family, even if they mean well and have good intentions. Having a group of people that have experienced similar feelings/drives/events really helps!

DAY 16: Achievement unlocked!!!

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Old 08-27-2017, 03:11 AM
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Hi there SoberBlondie congratulations on your 16 days .
Your story was helpful to be as it reminds me how we go straight back to where we were when we pick up that first drink .
Reminds me of part of my own story when my wife bought me a wine rack and a case of wine one Christmas ,it was all gone within 2 weeks .

The people here are a great support .
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SB- many people I know use 'tribe' as their way of thinking. A good one too.
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Old 08-27-2017, 04:15 AM
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Thanks for sharing Thomas59! I think we have one final bottle in our cellar, which is a huge bottle of vintage champagne that was gifted to us when our son was born.

I know in the past my thinking would be "well how could I possibly waste a good, vintage, expensive bottle of champagne??"

Now, I'm trying to shift the perspective. My organs are also vintage, and deserve even more love and care than vintage booze!!!

So, if hubby agrees, maybe we can sell it hahaha. I think it is worth something since it's almost 20 years aged.

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Originally Posted by SoberBlondie View Post
My ability to finally call a duck a duck is helping me tremendously.
I've been called much worse. Glad I could help!
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