It might be worth thinking about all things you want from life. At the moment you're focussed on getting out of it with your mates, one of whom has described you as a raving alcoholic. Aside from that, what's important to you? I found that going out and getting drunk all the time was not compatible with getting fit, developing my career, saving money, doing my hobbies and being attractive to girls and holding down a relationship. Some people can balance their drinking with success in all those other areas. Most of us who came to this forum have found we cannot.