So glad you are here. I found the forum through Google too, reading only at first, but finally diving in and becoming part of the community by posting and interacting. It has made all the difference for me. It can for you too.
You can do it. Read around and post as much as you need to. We get it! It does get easier. Maybe at first it's hour by hour, day by day, but the days come together, and your mind and body heal little by little, and then in leaps and bounds.
If we can, you can too!