Codemaster,
I'm here praying for you that you stay in the light and don't use. It's so easy to be pulled back in in that type of situation...I know...I could never go to a rave again. Hard enough for me just to step foot in a bar. Anyway, prayers are with you that you don't "drop" Your mind is worth keeping sane.
I find that the healthier I get, the less attractive situations that can get me into trouble are. I'm jealous of those that can go to places that are risky and not use but I had to learn the hard way, I simply am not one of those.
You can surround yourself with healthy people and that certainly helps, but for me, I tend to just hurt those healthy people in situations where I have easy access to unhealthy things, heck I can twist up just about anything!
Geesh, really praying for ya here! Hope "testing" yourself turns out well, but because of who I am, it simply sounds dangerous.
Hugs,
~FaithChaser