Hi Everyone
thanks,
I'm new to this and feel it's time to make a change. I fuction well 80% of the time but the other 20% can be absolutely disaterous. I have managed to make significant changes over several years but I am still at risk of significant harm when drinking.
I'm interested in understanding more about my 'alcoholic voice'. I can have something horrific happen as the result of alcohol (as it did on Saturday) and still I can feel my resolve slipping and it's like the experience will just slide off me, as it has done in the past. It's terrifying not to learn from such extreme behaviour. I feel like to universe was showing me exactly what I am capable of and yet I still can't accept or properly hear it. Why is that? Why do I lie to myself?
Can anyone help with this as I need to understand?
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Gabe