Am I doing the right thing?
Prior to us meeting, husband was a covaine addict, went to rehab but I actually only found out on Wednesday he was kicked off the course for asking his family if they'd get him out early. They agreed. So he got kicked off the program after 4 weeks.
10yrs on, 3 children and a baby due in just 3 weeks. Every now and again I've caught him using, whether it be suspicious behaviour, going through his phone or me swabbing toilet seats.
Each time he promises to stop, says he'll do what ever it takes. Few weeks pass of him being the most amazing husband and father - all forgotten until next time.
Forward wind to Tuesday, I went for the sugar pot in my kitchen and found a rolled up note behind it (I don't have sugar in tea but fancied some strawberries with sugar). He was like it's from weeks ago, but I'd had the pot of sugar out Thursday to make my mum a cup of tea. Friday we went camping for the weekend.
He admitted doing it Thursday night whilst I was out and he was looking after the two younger children. Looking back the signs were there the previous weekend, probably the one before. He's a big drinker and stays up late on a weekend despite working a 60/70 hour week.
He says its once a month, no big deal, 21st century, everyone does it etc etc.
This was the final straw, doing it whilst being responsible for our children, he's started doing it in the kitchen and dining table. I've kicked him out, I don't want him anywhere near me, the children or my home.
He thinks I'm over reacting and blown it out of proportion. I've finally told his parents, they weren't shocked and have said he can stay there but he refuses. I think he's in hotels, I don't know.
The girls are heartbroken, desperately want to see him but I've said to him he needs to stay with his parents the night before he sees them so I can be assured he hasn't had a drink (coke follows drink with him). He won't stay at his parents so I've said no.
He's making me feel like I'm over reacting, im not am I? I am doing the right thing?
I'm heavily pregnant, 3 children, it's summer holidays, the girls are hurting and blaming me- I'm really tired and struggling, I'm scared, lonely and terrified of giving birth alone. I just need some reassurance.
Sorry for waffling, it's been a long emotional day, I've held in the tears until now - the girls are asleep :-(