I think I have seen your posts in the subreddit. I have been posting over there too, but used this site to kick booze and thought it would be helpful to visit. I quit CT 5 days ago after 20-30g day habit. Couldn't taper worth **** and would "celebrate" with a big dose once I reduced a few grams or so. So ****** up. Also, had been hiding the fact "I got addicted" from my wife for last 8 months, and decided to come clean. She's been supportive, but does not really get how addicting Kratom. This **** sucks and just know there are others exactly in your boat. My plan was to quit on a Thursday night at 11:30pm, when I took my usual last dose of day. Then went into work with withdrawals next morning but had to leave work. Took a Valium and supplements Just sat through the suck, walked the dog; whatever. Been just white knuckling it bc I want off this **** so bad. Have used some prescribed gabapentin and prescribe klonopin to help. Good luck to you - you can do this too.