Hi N
So glad you are here. This is a great place for support if you are ready to reclaim your life.
I am also a mom with older teen kids, who didn't start heavy drinking till later in life. I've now been alcohol free for all of this summer and I'm starting to reemerge and rediscover myself, my strength, my health, my self respect. You can too. Your daughters deserve it and so do you.
You have the power to stop and change your life.
We are here to help.
Here's my introductory post if you'd like to read it. Many of us have similar stories. Alcohol damages all of us in such predictable ways.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/410002-wine-drinking-woman-desperate-stop.html
Best wishes. This can be your corner turned. There's a lot of life left ahead.