Learning...
I am 11 days after relapse as well.
I had two months before.
Every day before now sucked big time. LOL.
Today was the first day I felt free. I am sure its not the end of temptation (unless there is some miracle in store for me greater than just getting sober for 11 more days of my life)...
But what IS great is knowing that this is what my future will look like on a mostly daily basis for the rest of my life IF I stay sober.
I will be mostly free of the mental obsession someday.
Thats when life begins!