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Old 08-09-2017, 08:47 PM
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Day 11. I am getting a taste of what sobriety will feel like forever...

Tonight I have not even thought about drinking. I have not even thought about sobriety.

For a good two hours... all thoughts about ANY of this have been... just not there.

Its all been a non-issue.

My mind was occupied with other interesting things.

It hasnt been a great day. Its just been a "day".

The house is still a mess, I am not yet meditating regularly and still have not started my yoga practice back up. I weigh about 15 lbs more than I wish I did.

So... Life isnt all "I am doing AWESOME!!!"

Life is just life...

In sobriety, though, without hangovers... I ve been giving the sweet doggie I share my life with three good walks a day, consistently. Shes all happy. All stretched out on the bed. All content.

Thats a glorious, happy, sight. Taking good care of the beings I love... That feels good. Incomparably GOOD.

Ive been watching videos and reading about addiction earlier today. Learning. Thats a good thing to do.

Life is not perfect, but tonight it occurred to me that #1 ... I AM SOBER!!! #2... I havent even thought about the issue of drinking for a good solid two hours.

Its all a HUGE relief. To know that.

Life will be like that on a regular basis someday.

Drinking will not be a 12 hour a day 7 days a week issue in my life... someday.

and I got to taste that tonight.

I WANT THAT. Very, very, much.

I can live that way.

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Old 08-09-2017, 09:46 PM
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Good for you Herculana - here's to many more such days

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Sounds like you're mirroring my thoughts, or rather, lack of thoughts (with regards to drinking at least).

I was in the super market yesterday and looked at the beer cooler area briefly, and said to myself: "Hell no, you're not even gettin' any of this! You've had your time and that's in the past, Devil's ****." It made me feel so empowered.

Let's keep going strong!
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This is wonderful. So happy for you, Herculana. Love the peaceful feeling you describe. So true that it's not perfection, but it's real and good.
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Thanks for this encouragement. I am on day ten following a relapse and it's great to hear positive messages from someone on day 11.
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Old 08-09-2017, 11:05 PM
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Learning...

I am 11 days after relapse as well.
I had two months before.

Every day before now sucked big time. LOL.

Today was the first day I felt free. I am sure its not the end of temptation (unless there is some miracle in store for me greater than just getting sober for 11 more days of my life)...

But what IS great is knowing that this is what my future will look like on a mostly daily basis for the rest of my life IF I stay sober.

I will be mostly free of the mental obsession someday.

Thats when life begins!
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Well done on 11 days
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That's brilliant!!!!
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This is a tough process, but I can say without hesitation that it gets much easier as time goes on and you develop your "sober muscles." Drinking becomes a non issue and eventually you stop thinking about it all.
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I liked your post Herculana , day 10 for me . I relate to that "not feeling anything " sensation . In a way when we feel like that its like we are just letting it be as it is without judgement which I think is a good thing .
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Agree...sobriety is an awesome lifestyle change

Those peaceful times happened more and more and lasted longer and longer as time went on.

Thank God home, in various locations and configurations, has always been a place to fully decompress and unstress.

When I crave, I know it will go away sooner than later wherever I am. But, home is my fortress of solitude.

Eating when I crave has been my goto move forever.

I also enjoy a big cup of homemade ice coffee (I use instant generic brands), decaf at night. Add a bit of sugar free hazel nut creamer....boom! Happiness in a cup!

I have never ever regretted waking up hangover free.

I remember, towards the end of my drinking days, looking at the bottle and thinking,...this is going to suck in the morning.

Once the physical addiction was over, 10 or so days, the mental has tried to get me to relapse, over and over....nearly everyday.

But, rather than fight the addiction....I embrace the sobriety.

Proudly sober. It has been a complete game changer.

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Great job and thanks for sharing! It is really awesome when we realize that (our new) normal can be just that - no stars or unicorns or whatever!- and be so great.

Keep going- as Dee and OOTT said (do listen to them!) it keeps getting better and we can have lovely REAL lives. Best to you!
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Originally Posted by herculana View Post
#2... I havent even thought about the issue of drinking for a good solid two hours.
Liberating, isn't it?

I never knew what a slave I was until I tasted that freedom from the mental obsession to drink.

Congratulations. Keep doing it!
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