So sorry dear Nic. Those "farewell" drinks can be brutal. Maybe one day far, far worse for us. Today is day 1 of better you that over time will turn into the best you ever! I know you can do it, because you've encouraged and supported me and others to do it. We are here for you. We know how you are feeling now. Don't let the guilt rip you apart. We are alcoholics. We act like that when we drink. There is only way to assure we never behave like that again. You'll wake up tomorrow with a little less guilt and a little more hope and on day 2!!
Thinking of you. Hugs 🤗