Tomorrow marks day 1
I've just turned 30. Tonight has been my last "blow out". Tomorrow will be day 1 of my journey to become alcohol-free...
I've tried this many many times before and have always ended up relapsing. And feeling a tremendous sense of self-loathing to boot -
which of course causes me to drink more. Tonight I decided to create this account and send this message out to the world. To have myself held accountable.
I'll post again tomorrow and let you know how I'm going. I feel scared as the idea of "sobriety forever" feels so freeing but restricting/"boring" at the same time...the latter being ridiculous I know, but still these thoughts plague me. I have to do this though. For my health and for my loved ones.
Let's do this.