Hi, minnie, and welcome to SR. I'm glad you found your way here, and I hope you find education, inspiration and support.
He tells me he needs me to get better
So not true. HE is the only one who can provide the desire and effort.
I hope you can spend some time reading around the forum. I think when you've done so, you'll feel a LOT less alone and you'll have a different perspective on what's really going on.
Again, glad you found us here. I hope you keep reading and posting.