Ummm.... Del, all I can say is if it feels like real sucky stuff in life to you and you're not going to drink, then it's real life.
On the other hand, if things start to feel unreal, like if you tell people in complete honesty what you're doing or thinking of doing, they look a little scared on your behalf -- that's a warning sign.
When I had 9 months, I started opening bottles that weren't mine just to smell the liquor. I'd take a whiff of vodka and then go eat olives LOL. I was doing other stuff too. And I started planning out ways that I could go on a secret spree.
It's only you who knows how honest you are on SR. If you're making self-destructive back-pocket plans, or can't work or care for yourself or your children -- it doesn't matter if it's PAWS or something else, you should talk to your doctor.
At my end, I'm a little sad tonight. I took my nest of nymphs out tonight because 2 of them are flying away next week. I'll miss them!
