elenkos

I've been binge drinking for many years. I never had to drink every day but the last several months have really scared me. I've managed to come home and drink alone several nights of the week, wake up hung over, go to work exhausted and feeling depressed. I'm finally scared about this. I used to drink sporadically with friends only and now I find myself years later drinking alone to numb my feelings.

Unfortunately, I've managed to cause arguments with family and friends the last few months and went off on a group text tirade to family and friends saying some pretty rotten things. I've been pretty ashamed at my behavior these last several months.

I'm glad I'm realizing I need to stop this before it gets worse. I was never this person while drinking but I'm seeing it escalating. I've never really made a serious attempt to quit drinking. What also scares me is that I've been experiencing some of the things I'm reading about here on the days I don't drink - fatigue, depression, anxiety. This will be day one for me. I know I am going to need some support and will keep reading these forums as they've helped open my eyes to many things already.