Hi and welcome back Herculana
to be honest the one thing that really helped me was this community - when I thought my head would explode or I'd never make another day sober because of factors x y and z, this community talked me down, and I got through, sober.
After a while I found what I thought was unendurable was actually endurable, with support...
and that gave me the leeway to try and find other healthier ways of dealing with stress, anger, boredom. fear, or whatever.
there are some pretty good ideas for dealing with stress here, for example:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...44-stress.html
Don't lose heart. You listened to the wrong voice as many of us did - listen to the right ones now
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