I am truly grateful for the support and advice. Thank you very much guys. I really want to heal and be a better me so I can ensure not to attract or be attracted to this type of painful situation again. I got complacent with my own inner work while I was with her and i'm stepping it into overdrive now. Man! it sucks to be hurt like this doesn't it? I understand how people can go nuts over this type of stuff.
I know my priority is my kid so I will do whatever it takes to sort my head out and I gotta tell you she is so smart, sweet, compassionate and fun that just thinking about her makes me smile. (My kid that is)
Anyway thanks again and lots of love to you all.