Hi Efra,
I am sorry you are feeling so down. I always look forward to your inspirational posts on the 24 hour thread. They set my day off on a positive note.
You definitely sound depressed, I would give your doctor a call back and let them know how you are feeling, maybe the medication you are taking is not the right fit anymore.
I'm sorry about your girlfriend and your friend. The end of relationships can definitely affect us emotionally. Have you thought about seeing a counselor in addition to your doctor to help you work through this.
As for AA, although I do not attend, I agree with Dee that it has seemed to really be a good fit for you. Much of what you share with us comes from some of the things you have learned there. Have you tried out other groups besides your home group?
Please stick close to here this weekend, and post as much as you need. Also, enjoy the time with your granddaughter.
❤️Delilah