I want him to NOT do is keep apologising over and over again.
we mental health cases are always worried we're going to drive people away with our inability to get our **** together...
we fear that the people we love and need will grow tired and leave us to flounder alone....
this is a ruling fear for me... and that endless sorry sorry is because we can see it all happening... and watch what it does to those that love us... and yet.. we are unable to lift ourselves out of the sickness so that we don't do it to them anymore...
It's a heartbreaking path...
Those around us are not the cause of our feelings. We are.
yes...
I am just now beginning to see how far this reaches....
and how I have left myself wide open feeling wise to be tossed by the vagaries of other's lives...
..and yes... it is very freeing to know I don't have to do that anymore.. but that I can still experience and project love... in copious amounts.
my new motto of today....
I will not do anything for someone today that they can and need to do for themselves
... that includes sharing their headspace.. ;o)