Ayoung woman,,,with a life ahead...and with such good, wise words. Yes- my thinking and feelings exactly. Because I am an alcie- I compare, and you win! I am onhigh noon middle age, 17 months sober.
The point here really is you are not lucky- because luck has little to do with the hard work needed for sobriety. Every day, in every way- I am getting a little better. As for pain- I get that. It is always there- at best any pain- emotional or physical means there is stuff that needs healing. Constant pain- and the only way to control it- is to keep moving, trying, taking risks.
I will refrain from writing a thesis for you. So (sigh) I will have to make-do..
WELL DONE, AWESOME- I AM (ACTUALLY) HAPPY FOR YOU!