Stewy, you begin by saying "NO" to your AV every second and you start NOW.
You don't need to hit rock bottom or wait for a dramatic moment to shift your way of thinking.
You don't wait for actions to happen TO you.
YOU make actions happen - no drama, no big "Aha" moments, no flashy stories.
You just keep grinding through the fog, through all the triggers and temptations. And then you accumulate some sober time under your belt. You start feeling much better. And you keep going, never entertaining a thought "I can handle it now".
You keep making your life better, achieving things you never thought you are capable of. And you keep going even further.
And stay closer to SR - amazing place indeed.
Best wishes to you.