Equus,
I think that you have been doing phenomenally well with your recovery and supporting D in his recovery as well..I was really impressed with the way you handled his relapse last week..
I don't have any answers to letting go of fears of financial insecurity..It is one of my greatest fears as well..
Today I own a house and I have savings in the bank but I am most always in fear of losing all I have..(It's one step for me to homeless in my mind)..Reality is that although I've been kicked out of my house at 21 by my mom and I had an exbf leave me and break a lease, I've always had a roof over my head and been provided for..
I keep that in the back of my mind that I have friends that love me and would put me up if I needed to..
Hang in there! You are doing great..
Minx