I struggled quite a bit yesterday. I received and accepted a job offer and that should be a positive thing, but not being able to share it with my husband was brutal.
Since I've become sober, all these positive changes have happened in my life, but there is a cloud hanging over them. Not being able to share them with my partner has been tough. It seems like everything good that happens reminds me that he is not there.
I ended up going to two meetings yesterday because I broke down and struggled to keep my mind off of my estranged husband. I don't miss my intoxicated self, but I do miss being with my husband.
I just want this pain to stop so I can enjoy the positive changes in my life, but there is always a reminder that he is absent.
I am hoping once I start my job, I will be distracted enough to get my mind off of my marriage. Some days are just so difficult.
