((((sweet jo))))
Recovery, for me, was a bit of an overhaul, to say the least.
I had lost my soul and was an empty shell.
Recovery work, especially lots of introspection, has helped to rebuild self-worth and to recover my soul.
I had absolutely no support system in place when I sought sobriety; my sole focus was on caregiving for an extremely ill and then dying parent; about six months later I had a Grace of God moment where I began to appreciate, and be thankful for, every single sober moment. That appreciation and gratitude saw me through the next almost two years until I found SR.
You are very busy with two jobs and two children. I have never attended AA but I am wondering if reading the Big Book would help. I have gained so much wonderful perspective from reading erfra's daily posts on the 24 Hour thread; perspective was something I could have definitely benefitted from in those early days.
Might be worth a try.