Just to let all you incredible people know that I took my step 3 today and I'm in a happy little space this evening, safe with my HP, who is indeed of my own choosing, with my dog asleep beside me and I haven't been this calm and happy in many a long year.
I spent the afternoon with my sponsor and all my fears melted away. I guess I'm worried I'll get something wrong with the steps and lose my sobriety - but I'm not sure relapse works that way. I also get the wrong end of the stick on an hourly basis, but thats just brain fog. And even that feels like its lifting daily.
I hope you're all well and safe wherever you are in the world and I look forward to taking my steps with you.