Good point, being right once.
Some of my downfall which I am realizing is that I always thought that sometime in the future I could go back to it. I never really gave myself the chance to NEVER have it again and infact that terrified the hell outta me and still does. One thing that perplexes me is that I have known for years that I'm an alcoholic and never denied it, yet I still thought that somehow I could control the drink when in fact its controlling me so much so that I feel very uncomfortable thinking about my future without it. I simply just went with the fact that I will always drink and still believed the lie that it'll fix itself and I can always quit in the future. Problem is, the future always becomes NOW and NOW was never when I wanted to quit.
I still feel nervous about it all but I really really WANT to quit and definitely need to so here I am.
Thanks for the encouragement.